New Day, New Dawn,New aspect of Jesus,New Me

Reading Michele Perry's blog - Relevant to Heaven, I knew that I never gave a rip or desired to be on a platform as me, because I never valued myself very highly, lacking confidence and any belief in my own ability. If I get the platform it will be as a biproduct of what is happening in my heart, soul and spirit.

The revelation and teaching from Ian Clayton has released me into the realm of heaven and freedom to be me, but also for me to become not what I was made to be but what I was created to be at the beginning of time.

The future is so different than I ever imagined when I first found Jesus in July 1980. The world is now in turmoil, but I am at peace because of Jesus love, wanting peace and security for others, but with the knowledge that we all have a responsability for the mess we are in. The only way out is by the cross, by the love of Jesus.

Jesus did so much, we need to do more as  one of the burning ones, for that is what I want to be, I want heaven to find a resting place with me and I do not want to be irrelevant to heaven. I want live in heaven as much as on the earth.
I am and I want to continue to be a servant who knows the meaning of going through the door in the floor. 

The only place I want to be relevant to is heaven, and the only person I want to be relevant to is the Trinity Papa, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. For him glory to rest in the land to rest in me and on me. The Hope of Heaven, The Joy of life.
The manifest Glory of Jesus.
The Angels working with me as I walk this path with my friend, my dream giver. The laughter of heaven has nothing to do with the legalism of religion, the is no connection. Trying to b relevant to modren society will never work because it is giveing more of the same, but Heaven WOW,WOW,WOW!!  

How life changes !

In my last entry I was struggling with the pain in my ankle/ achilles tendon caused by the 3 mosquito bites. Nearly a month later and I have changed, I still have the pain and am limited in my walking still because of the pain. Now that the swelling has virtually gone(which cushioned the injury a little) sleeping is difficult and painful but I am learning that it is all Jesus, I am his an he is mine. His death on the cross won freedom for me, but freedom is not always what our frail human minds call freedom.

For the second time in my life I felt the love of Jesus, had his arms around my Spirit, the first being at Ian Clayton Conference (COBH) just a few weeks ago.

The glory of Heaven shines for all to see if we will focus and see the reality for those who love Jesus.

Freddy Hayler helped this part of my journey as did a blog entry with the scripture Matthew 22 v 36 - 39.

I have always loved him loved JESUS, AND MY DREAMS HAVE RESTED WITH HIM. I REJOICE AT HEAVEN'S GLORY AND BEAUTY OF GOD'S LOVE.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU, JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY OF HEAVEN IN MY HEART

In the Hard times Jesus is there

5 weeks ago I was at a 50th Birthday party of a lady called Julie, it was held at the home of friends, but it was near a canal. I got 3 mosquito bits on my left ankle and had by far the worst experience I have ever had with insect bits. On the same day I was taking antibiotics for an involuted big toenail on my right foot. My Mum, a retired GP said she was glad I was on the antibiotics because the bits were nasty and might have been infective otherwise.

My left ankle has been causing me trouble ever since, and I am struggling to cope with other issues related to the past as well as things going on in the world at large, I just feel sad right now. But even though I feel the sadness, always on my mind I have Jesus, he is my healer, my deliverer and I have nothing if I don't have him. My achilles tendon on my left ankle is the main pain right now, but it has been assaulted by an extreme reaction to the bits. and the swelling is constricting the tendon.

I am praying it won't last too much longer as it is hampering life and waring me out. I feel alone,isolated and in need of companionship, but I will do the best I can and give up my life to Jesus

The way I am feeling right now about my life is what am I here for, what is the point. I enjoy my craft work, but life has much more to offer than this, living in isolation is tough when you are struggling.
Perhap the struggle to cope on my own is the problem.

I love Jesus and want his kingdom to come and his will to be done in my life, but I am a little afraid that I won't be able to cope if I surrender everything to him. I guess I don't trust him as much as I should. Although he has never given me any reason to mistrust him. He is not like all the people who stamped on me or made my life a misery while growing up, and I suppose I am at a crossroads in my life right now and the choices I make in the days ahead will define my destiny in him, and what I achieve in my ministry. I have always believed that I had a calling on my life and calling to something bigger than what I am in now. I have been patient in the waiting, but struggled since the 16th July 2010, where things changed so dramatically for me, emotionally and has created conflict in the home and has not been easy, and is not getting any better in some ways.

I have had dreams in my heart and where I stand in my life right now was not part of those dreams, but I don't know how to achieve the things that God has called me to because I am stuck and constrianed by the limits of others, limits that do not exist in  the kingdom with Jesus. I don't want to buy into the lie of the devil that I am no use because that is not truth and I refuse to embrace that in my life.
What has caused most of the difficulties in my life, has been other people and barriers they have placed before me,instagated by the devil, and I refuse to allow the effects of his works to define my life, now or in the future. I love JESUS and Jesus LOVES ME. This is all I need to know.

Life is brighter

I know that Jesus loves me so much, and I love him and want to be near him. It has been a journey towards something new in the world. Things are going to change radically and I have always wanted a part in this. People and circumstances have tried to stop me along the way, but it is testament to God and his work in my life that I am still going. More and More I am realising that it is all about him and who he is in my life rather than who I am. I can remain with a disability which the world veiws as stopping me form doing things but actually God views as able to do more for him and the Kingdom and the realm of the Spirit.


I have had dreams for my future which are now beginning to light my heart again. I have had difficulties this last year, with loosing Sassy, my best canine friend, who was very special to me and helped me. Last night I came through the end of a tunnel which started when my Dad died in 1999. I had just begun to recover from that loss, when I then lost Sassy. She had helped me through  that long period as we got her in 2001, and having my feelings trestored added to the overall feeling which is greater than anything I experienced before.

Things change again

One thing we are garanteed is change is here to stay. I have had a difficult time this year with change.
The 16th July 2010 changed me in ways I am just beginning to understand because what changed was alot more than just my emotions. I can do things I was not able to do before.

I do alot of creative stuff, cardcrafting, writing obviously and poetry all of which I enjoy doing, but I now feel more capable than I did before. Hitting the first anniversary 4 days ago highlighted this feeling and made me more aware of where I stand what I have had to cope with over the last year.

It has been tough and there have been times of conflict within and without with my mum, but slowly we are working things out together and Jesus is helping me to get myself sorted out.

Last night was a change point of surrender to Jesus, which has changed how I feel about the future and about where I am going. It is interesting to me that watching a programme about Islam made me consider my position.

As I sit here writing this I know that things have changed and I will never be the same.

Ettiquette can Hide a multitude of sins

 Carolyn Bourne vs. Hiedi Withers
I have sympathy with the need for manners and etiquette, but I do not have sympathy with lack of compassion and rudeness from an older person to a younger person.

To inforce rules which basically humiliate and ridicule a person who may not have known this etiqutte in the first place, is unkind and shows Carolyn Bourne for the bully she is and I would not want to marry into a family where someone was prepared to set into a younger person.

My mother who is 70, experienced something similar with my father's family and was appalled by the report on the News, and the way that this woman dealt with someone who has quite a serious problem suffering diabetes, and it may be that this girl has to make a bigger fuss about it because they could have a dead person on their hands, and diabetes can cause lethagy and tiredness.
When manners overrides compassion and caring then  having manners is not worth very much at all.
In my veiw  manners and the strictness of rules adhered to in the the past has led to the gross overswing to we see today in girls behaviour.

Freedom to be ourselves and behave in a decent way would be altogther better.

Love and Jesus

Jesus died so I could be free. Jesus died for as us and for us before time began, befor the world began. He wants to show his goodness to all his children and make this world the way it could always have been.
God did not want all the bad that has happpened in the world since the beginning of time itself, but things were set in motion and we as human beings had freewill so the bad has gone on longer because we refused to see the need for a God.
We go our own way out of choice and create an environment where evil and destruction is able to flourish.
But if we choose to walk with Jesus and Papa God, the possibilities for change and renewal are endless.

Jesus is Alive, In him I can thrive

Well, Here goes I have changed the direction of my blogspot.
I have always loved Jesus and wanted to be his close friend but I often felt that what I did was not great enough, satisfactory or successful enough. As a person with Asperger Syndrome, I always felt inadequate because people made me feel that way.

Not anymore I know that God created me this way and whatever other people say or do is their problem.
Jesus Loves me and that is all I need to know.

The realm of the Spirit of God is open to all, there is no need to go after werewolves, demons, and witchcraft, because we were made supernatural beings and we have access to the supernatural through Jesus.

The Glory and Love of My friend Jesus continued

The love I feel for the world comes from the depth of love I now feel for Jesus. Gloryfest 2011-20th , 21st, and 22nd January 2011 was a marker in many ways. I am overwhelmed by the Jesus I now know and what he did for me. I did not have to ask and I did not have say a word. He has seen me through the difficult times and he has given me time to rest along the way. He has by his touch changed the veiw of my past and renewed my hope in him for the future.
I now understand a little more of who this Jesus is. I feel his heart beating. I feel more of what he feels for the broken world I live in. A world which he loved and cared for to such a depth, that he gave his life, which is at the same time both a sad and  a glad HAPPPENING.
I had a car crash, a scary frightening experience, but the Angels were there and our lives were secure. I was changed by the Glory of Jesus and I found my Jesus to be enough. I cried out to God to help us and he did.
I am happy and I love him and I see the kingdom in a new way.

His love is what I need, his grace helps me succeed

I don't understand the ways of heaven, but I desire to learn. I desire the dreams that God placed in my heart before my life was even begun. His heart is my heart, his love my love, his joy my joy, his sadness my sadness when I see the brokenness of the land, then I want my dreams so I can be all that I am created to be. The one I am called to be, to be love and bring healing to the land.

The Glory and Love of My friend Jesus

This is just a quick entry in my blog to say that I am in love with Jesus, he saved my life again and my Mum who was driving on Monday 24th January 2011. A lorry hit us on the M4 motorway, the car has a scrapped gouge in the door on the passenger side where I was sitting and had the front of the lorry baring down on me from. A surreal experience. But we survived to tell the tale and a story of Glory, Angels and God's provision.

I always knew God had something for me on this earth. I am here for a reason. I know he kept us safe and looked after a situation that could have been much worse. THANK YOU JESUS THANK YOU THAT YOU LOOKED AFTER US.

I LOVE YOU JESUS